Is Hope A Safe Place To Fall?
As the guys were composing the songs, crafting them, working on the arrangements, and recording them, I had the privilege of being with them in studio. This is something I wrote as they were crafting the song “If You’re Passing By”.
At that point, the album was not yet finished, but we knew pretty much what shape it would take. This blog, though, was still pretty far in my mind, and I wasn’t thinking of it at all. But as I was watching them, listening to them, and sharing the emotions they were living through the music, I felt compelled to write something. It might have never been used, but I needed to write it.
This blog is a recollection of thoughts and moments, incomplete, but raw, as I lived the moment.
June 29th, 2012
Looking back on 5 years, you realize that the most incredible joy walks hand in hand with the deepest of all despairs. Maybe after all, joy could never “be” without despair. Can we know what beauty is until we’ve sought what’s truly ugly? This is a little bit how I see Your Favorite Enemies’ story; we needed to experience the most horrible things in order to know that a beautiful treasure was right under our nose: US.
Today, the band was rehearsing the song “If You’re Passing By”, a song that was composed many, many years ago, when what we could see around us was blurred by darkness. But no matter how good the song sounded, they just didn’t find it right. Alex said the song sounded too much like a huge, wide, yet very calm flowing river… Calm waters, that were never increasing in speed, never had to go over obstacles or even go out of their way because of them. Yet, this is not what this song is about; if the album is to represent the last 5 years, it needs to be a little more hectic, it needs some waves. The text is so deep, so introspective, giving place to real soul-searching. It is just like a movie scene, where the main character realizes what he did wrong and starts changing, that’s when everything changes… This is what the song needs to illustrate…
Somehow, the members of the band did not seem very satisfied with what they came up with… Not that the song is not good or anything, I felt like it was more the emotions that were put into the song that they couldn’t convey the way they wanted, as if it didn’t glue all together. And I can understand… This song was written and composed 5 years ago, during quite a dark period for the band, when their relationships between them weren’t what they are today, and they hadn’t played the song much live or anything… This song probably has a lot of different meanings, for each and every one of them, like it was a different story for everyone of them, bringing back completely different memories. Somehow, they felt like it was many songs at once, instead of one… But this song had to be lived collectively… A song is something you live, not something you play because you need to… And as much as this song needed some more waves, they needed to go in the same direction, bringing the listeners somewhere, not tearing them apart…
June 30th, 2012
After I guess what we can call a night of sleep, and after some more intense, real and vivid discussions, the band went back to playing “If You’re Passing By”, all together again.
And I must say, it was different from the night before… Not that they played better. But all the discussions they had finally made them travel together on this journey… Discussions about the song meaning for each and every one of them. Not once, not even once, did they mention or talk about the parts, the chords, the sounds, the effects… It was all about the soul, the spirit of the song… Because once you understand a song, once you’ve become a close friend with it, lived different emotions with it… Then, and only then can you put it back into music…